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Day 1043: Déjà Vu

Déjà Vu.  That strange feeling we sometimes get that we’ve lived through something before — that what is happening now has already happened.

Way back in the 1960’s, I learned that Déjà Vu is a glitch in our cognition — an experience going into the memory section of the brain too quickly. Since then, whenever I feel that strange feeling of Déjà Vu, I just go along for the ride.

Here are some quotes about Déjà Vu:

It’s déjà vu all over again.
Yogi Berra

For a few precarious seconds, the chaplain tingled with a weird, occult sensation of having experienced the identical situation before in some prior time or existence. He endeavored to trap and nourish the impression in order to predict, and perhaps even control, what incident would occur next, but the afflatus melted away unproductively, as he had known beforehand it would. Déjà vu. The subtle recurring confusion between illusion and reality that was characteristic of paramnesia fascinated the chaplain, and he knew a number of things about it. He knew, for example, that it was called paramnesia and he was interested as well in such corollary optical phenomena as jamais vu, never seen, and presque vu, almost seen. There were terrifying, sudden moments when objects, concepts and even people that the chaplain had lived with almost all his life inexplicably took on an unfamiliar and irregular aspect that he had never seen before and which made them seem totally strange: jamais vu. And there were other moments when he almost saw absolute truth in brilliant flashes of clarity that almost came to him: presque vu. The episode of the naked man in the tree at Snowden’s funeral mystified him thoroughly. It was not déjà vu, for at the time he had experienced no sensation of ever having seen a naked man in a tree at Snowden’s funeral before. It was not jamais vu, since the apparition was not of someone, or something, familiar appearing to him in an unfamiliar guise. And it was certainly not presque vu, for the chaplain did see him…

Joseph Heller, Catch-22 (1961), pp. 52-53.

We have all some experience of a feeling, that comes over us occasionally, of what we are saying and doing having been said and done before, in a remote time — of our having been surrounded, dim ages ago, by the same faces, objects, and circumstances — of our knowing perfectly what will be said next, as if we suddenly remembered it!

Charles Dickens, David Copperfield (1850), Ch. 39.

There are some places which, seen for the first time, yet seem to strike a chord of recollection. “I have been here before,” we think to ourselves, “and this is one of my true homes.” It is no mystery for those philosophers who hold that all which we shall see, with all which we have seen and are seeing, exists already in an eternal now; that all those places are home to us which in the pattern of our life are twisting, in past, present and future, tendrils of remembrance round our heart-strings.

E. C. Bentley and H. Warner Allen, Trent’s Own Case (1936), Chapter XV.

In the condition of “deja vu” it is probable that what takes place is that one or several elements in the present situation are like those which had been experienced in the past, but that the dissimilarities in the situations are not observed. The individual has a memory defect in that he parallels or identifies a complex present experience with a similar complex past experience, although in the present experience the number of elements which are the same as those in the past may not be very great. In other words, the present experience is deemed to be the same as that of the past because of the fact that the past is not accurately remembered and properly localized in time.

Shepherd Ivory Franz, “Delusions”, Popular Science, January 1915, Vol. 86, p. 90.

To the category of the wonderful and uncanny we may also add that strange feeling we perceive in certain moments and situations when it seems as if we had already had exactly the same experience, or had previously found ourselves in the same situation. … I believe that it is wrong to designate the feeling of having experienced something before as an illusion. On the contrary, in such moments something is really touched that we have already experienced, only we cannot consciously recall the latter because it never was conscious. In short, the feeling of Déjà vu corresponds to the memory of an unconscious fantasy.

Sigmund Freud, The Psychopathology of Everyday Life (1901), tr. A. A. Brill (1915), pp. 320–321.

When some French were assembling an encyclopedia of paranormal experiences, they decided to leave déjà vu out, because it was so common it could not be considered paranormal.

Kim Stanley Robinson, Galileo’s Dream (2009), Ch. 13, p. 284

Do you get Déja Vu about this music?

Any Déjà Vu about these photos I took yesterday?

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Any Déjà Vu, now, if I thank everyone who helped me create this post today AND you, for experiencing it?

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Day 1039: Obligations

This month of November, I’ve committed to posting every day.  This does not feel like an onerous obligation to me, since I’ve chosen to post once a day since January 1, 2013.

I’ve determined that daily posting is not an obligation to anybody else,  but rather a personal commitment to growth and healing.

Obligations feel a lot different than choices, don’t they?

Yesterday, my therapy group decided  to discuss the topic of “obligations.”  Here’s something Olivia, the social work intern, shared with the group participants:

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Since I told Olivia I was going to include her drawing in today’s blog, I’ve now fulfilled that obligation.  I also choose to explain that Olivia did a great job, yesterday, describing how hidden and unclear obligations make it more challenging to be obliging.

It’s not my obligation to share with you what I shared with the group yesterday, but I am choosing to show you this:

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What are your thoughts and feelings about obligations?

I wonder who will feel obligated to respond if I ask which of these photos best represents the word “obligations”?

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I feel obligated to tell you that this photo best represents obligations, for me …

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… because it says “WASH ME.”

This photo

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… could also represent new and daunting obligations to me, since those are the keys to my office, in Newton, Massachusetts.  From now on, for one year, I have an obligation to pay rent for that space. However, providing group therapy in any location feels more like a privilege, to me,  than an obligation.

Do I have an obligation to my readers to include music in this post? Do you have an obligation to listen?

I hope you know you’re not obligated to listen to all of Antonio Vivaldi‘s Early Concertos for “Violincello Obligato.”

Obligatory AND sincere thanks to all who helped me create today’s post and special thanks to you — of course! — no  matter what your obligations are, today.

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Day 1038: Determined

I am determined to tell you, immediately, why this post is titled “Determined.”

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Now that I’m determined to examine that image — which I determined to take yesterday  —  I’ve determined that it does NOT say “TBD,” which stands for To Be Determined.  Instead, it says “TBA.”

Are we determined to discover what “TBA” stands for?

I’m determined to stay focused on “determined” today.

I’m determined to tell you that since my esteemed colleague, Mary, determined to retire from the hospital where we both work, we’ve been determined to find a wonderful therapist to fill her place. We’ve determined that nobody can really replace Mary, but we’re determined to find somebody special.   Even though we’ve been determined to interview many determined people over many determined weeks, that list of determined therapists still reads “TBA,” (which I’m determined, now, to announce means “To Be Announced”).

I’m determined to hope that we announce, very soon,  that we’ve determined that a determined, creative, empathic, and lovely person has determined to join us.

I’ve determined that I have other determined thoughts about “determined”:

  • I’m determined to meet with somebody today about renting office space, so I can offer my therapy groups to people who have determined  to not have their determined doctors at that Boston hospital where I work.
  • I’m determined to help myself and others focus on self care, which studies have determined promotes longer and happier lives for those who are determined to do so.
  • Being determined doesn’t mean focusing on one thing to the exclusion of all others.
  • I am determined to have adult-to-adult interactions with people, so they can determine priorities and options in their lives.
  • It has yet to be determined what college my son is going to next year.
  • I’m determined to facilitate a therapy group of determined people, this morning, at the hospital where my new co-worker is yet to be determined and announced.
  • For the month of November, I’ve announced that I’m determined to post every day, along with other determined bloggers.
  • Here are more determined photos, from yesterday:

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It’s TBD what I’m wearing to work today, but I’ve determined it won’t be what’s pictured above, since I determined to wear that yesterday.

Do you think this post is over determined?

It’s TBD and TBA what determined music I’m determining for this determined post.

Patience, please, while this is determined.

Some cheesy music by the determined and talented Tim Minchin has determined to stay in my head.

I’m determined to share it again, since I’ve determined that most people weren’t determined enough to play it two days ago.

What thoughts, feelings, or music might you be determined to share, here and now?

Determined thanks to all who helped me create this determined post and to you — of course! — for being determined enough to read it.

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